Moments, Part 2

I am grieving again.

This time for someone very close to me who I have loved very much. And the clocks in my house keep ticking, while the fridge keeps humming. Outside the UPS and Fed Ex trucks keep delivering packages to homes on my street.

Life goes on and I am acutely aware of time passing. More like time slipping away. My grief has left me with an enormous hole in my heart and immense sorrow for all my family, for what we’ve lost. As a reminder, I am re-posting a blog I wrote two summers ago. It’s titled, Moments:

Quick. Tell me a moment that was important to you.

Such moments should be on the tip of your tongue. No matter how long ago they happened, you remember. You remember because of a spark, a tug or because of a dream.

You remember because you laughed so hard you thought your ribs would crack, as your forehead once did when you were barely four and required stitches.  Or you remember because of the happiness you felt that swelled gloriously inside you…(click here to continue…)

19 thoughts on “Moments, Part 2

      • Of course you miss him. Sadly, I don’t think that we’re ever ready to lose a loved one.

        Unfortunately, nothing in the known universe can escape death. It’s how nature is.

        If anything at least the love you had for him is eternal.
        Allow yourself to grieve for as long as you need 😢. {{Hugs}}

    • Cappy, I feel bad that I haven’t been around. I am more concerned about you and what you’re dealing with. Take care of yourself and know that I am sending you love and good, positive thoughts. You are an amazing woman with so much to share with this world!

  1. Oh, Monica, too much grief in such a short span of time. Your described it perfectly how strange it seems that life goes on with Its deliveries, etc. I am so sad for what you and your family are going through. Grief is anguish through and through, a physical pain. I do t have adequate words to send to you except love and blessings and recognition of your terrible loss. I am so very sorry for him, your family, and you.

    • Karen, I search for answers but find none. This loss is unbearable and yet I am trying. Too many things remind me of my brother. Too many memories of his love and devotion to his family. His loss is like a deep wound.

  2. Thinking of you Monica at this very difficult time. I’m so very sorry for your loss. Brothers are very special. Sending you love, peace and comfort.

  3. Now I remember this post, Monica. At the time, I was pretty clueless what your brother was going through. None of us wants to acknowledge the “C” word. This has been an exceptionally rough year for you, my friend. Know you’re in my thoughts and prayers … and your brother is free from pain and tears. Hugs to you from clear across the country. Odd that time keeps racing, the earth keeps spinning, and grief extends to more and more of us. I’m so sorry for the hole that’s in your heart.

    • Rough doesn’t begin to describe it. I think Henry was trying to prepare me for my brother’s death. I was already grieving, but this grief is the worst. Thank you, Debbie, for understanding what I’m going through.

      • I’ll keep you in my prayers, my friend. Grief isn’t something any of us want, but it’s something ALL of us eventually must go through. Hugs!!

  4. I’ve lost several friends last three months and several more will not make it through 2019. Cancer is taking everyone. I feel cheated out of precious things – these people. My condolences for your loss.

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