Chapter 10: It sucks to be me. That’s what I kept telling myself when the happy wanderers arrived at our doorstep. Joanie and Spock. Only Joanie wasn’t so happy.
She was practically in a tailspin from having driven seven hours straight without stopping.
“Damn that Spock,” blurted Joanie, as she dumped her suitcases and shopping bags in the middle of our living room floor. “The toilet wasn’t working on the RV and I told him I needed to pee, but he kept saying we’re almost there. Almost? That was 5 hours ago!”
She hugged me tightly. It’d been a long time, and I stiffened slightly. She must have felt it, because she put her hands on my shoulders and looked me squarely in the eye.
“You’re not still mad about the trip, are you? I told you I’d pay you back.”
She was referring to the $250 I’d given her to put toward the purchase of the RV so we could go on our cross-country trip. Only she canceled the trip at the last minute.
“Hey, what kind of place is this, anyway? What happened to the sunlight?”
Joanie had just noticed how dark it was inside our home, even in the middle of the day. I switched on a light, and pointed Joanie in the direction of the bathroom. Meanwhile, G and Spock were brought in the rest of their belongings.
“So what are your plans, Joanie?” I asked as nonchalantly as possible, as soon as she came out of the bathroom. “Now that you’re here, I mean.”
She looked at me askance. “Well, we’re taking the RV up to Vancouver, BC, for some sightseeing. Why do you ask?”
Spock walked in, carrying yet another box. He shot a wary glance at Joanie who ignored him, then said,
“Don’t worry, Monica, we’re not staying here. Just leaving our stuff. G said it’d be ok. When we get back from British Columbia, we’ll find a place and be out of your hair.”
I liked Spock. He was a mild-mannered, easy going sort of guy. He was also completely devoted to Joanie. You could see it in his eyes, the way he looked at her.
“With any luck we’ll even find a place close to you, so thanks for letting us keep our stuff here,” Spock added with a wink.
I looked at G who simply shrugged. “I didn’t think you’d mind, so I said it’d be ok.”
“Of course, it’s ok,” Joanie interjected. “Monica doesn’t mind.” Then, looking at me directly, she added, “And don’t worry about the RV money. I’ll pay you back as soon as I’m able. Promise.”
Joanie came from money. Her parents owned land in the Rockies, including a few buildings in downtown Denver, so she never lacked for it. Which was why she and Spock didn’t have to worry about working. Joanie had a trust fund and that gave them plenty of leeway to follow their dreams and whims. Like moving to Seattle.
While G and Spock gathered their gear into the room that was supposed to be our study and guestroom, I pulled out a Carly Simon album, “No Secrets” and placed it on the turntable. Joanie dug through one of her suitcases and grabbed a sandwich-sized bag of pot. Sitting down at the kitchen table, she rolled a joint, with the precision of a Cuban cigar maker. Ah, memories of college started flooding back! I realized then that some of us were still stuck back at school.
I could not roll a joint to save my life, but Joanie was a professional. Back and forth she rolled until she had a very tight joint. Licking the edge, she lit it, took a hit and passed it to me. I shook my head.
She looked surprised. “Come on. Let’s have some fun!”
“Joanie, I have to work tomorrow.”
“Oh, whatever.” She shrugged and took another hit.
I could hear G and Spock in the other room, heaving and stacking boxes. “Let’s put this one on top,” G was saying.
Joanie leaned back in the chair and closed her eyes. I calculated how soon before she’d be having the munchies. No doubt, once the boys finished organizing, they’d be getting high too. In anticipation, I pulled out a box of sesame crackers from the cabinet, along with some Swiss cheese and leftover salmon filets from the fridge. G and I had gone, the day before, to Pike Place Market and stocked up on our favorites, salmon being one of them.
I had never tried salmon until I moved to Seattle and now it had become our mainstay. Salmon–grilled, baked, fried or smoked. Alder wood smoked salmon was by far the best. Seattle seemed to be the salmon capitol of the world. You could even watch them swim upstream at the Ballard Locks, not too far from where we lived. Fascinating creatures, these salmon are, determined to go against the grain, pushing upstream, against all odds, just so they could lay their eggs.
As I carefully placed the crackers on a plate, and sliced the cheese, Joanie said abruptly, “You know, if I didn’t have Spock, I might be married to G right now.”
I dropped the cheese slicer and looked at her quizzically. She looked so comfortable and at ease in my small kitchen, that seemed to be shrinking with every second passing. I could hear Carly Simon singing, “You’re so Vain,” and I wondered for the umpteenth time, exactly who she was singing about.
Joanie continued. “Yep, freshman year, G definitely had the hots for me.” She said, “Hots” slowly, mouthing the word in an exaggerated way, then adding coyly, “We made out once and, well, you know.”
I felt my cheeks burn. I didn’t know what she meant or why she was telling me this. But before I could say anything, G and Spock sauntered in. Spock turned to Joanie and asked,
“Babe, you talking to me yet? Cause we’ve finished unloading the RV and I’m ready to get high.”
Joanie gave a little Cheshire-cat smile and nodded. She handed him the joint. Slowly, he inhaled, then passed it on to G. I watched G take a hit, hold it for a few moments, then gradually, he blew it in my face. I didn’t say a word. G then bent over and gently kissed my forehead. And when he did, I’m pretty sure he didn’t notice, that inside, I was swimming like a salmon. Upstream, and against a rush of cold water.
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Oh dear, Monica…really feeling bad for you right now…
Wendy
Thanks! Always glad to see you stopping by! 😉
Monica, your writing style reels in the reader–we’re like salmon that’s been hooked! 🙂 Every time I click on your blog and see another installment of “The Road Taken,” I squeal with delight! I”m with Kenya, keep ’em coming! 🙂
Gracias, Bella. I’m so glad you like my saga. Coming from you, it means the world to me. 😉
Great post, Monica. I felt your pain. The things we put up with when we’re young and in love… (insert head shake and eye roll here) Keep ’em coming! 🙂
I know, I know. What can I say? We didn’t know any better, did we.
Anyway, will do! 🙂
Wow! Riveting writing.
How long ago was this chapter in your life?
About 30 years ago. Thanks for reading!
Oh… 30 years ago and I can see that you still feel the pain at times. I am going through a betrayal and divorce myself. I was hoping that the pain would subside with time but guess it never really goes away.
It does subside. Rest assured. I’m better off, and quite happy now. It just took a while to get here. The divorce itself was 16 years ago. Thanks for stopping by!
Your story telling is so great, I’m just drawn into it. Um, I do think these are the most presumptuous people ever. How terribly rude.
Not all are presumptuous. Spock was ok. Thank you for reading!
What a rude thing to say! I would have slapped her!
And I definately would not have shared my salmon. I love salmon.
You are so right. I should have kept that salmon to myself!
I really enjoyed this! For some reason, I’ve missed the story up until this point. I will go and read it!
I’m so glad you’re catching up! Welcome to my life! 🙂
The descriptive paragraph about the salmon screams YOU in this situation so the ending made me smile! This Joanie character though, whew would I have had some words for her! I too wonder if she ever pays you back… but also, how long her and Spock stay together..?
GREAT POST, MONICA!
Glad you like the salmon comparison. I thought it fitting, too. 🙂
Ummmm…Im thinking I would have made a HUGE make-out type kiss happen when he leaned down to kiss you!!! Or some sort of “oh baby” comment when he blew in your face!!!!
or maybe even something ( in return of her comment about him having the hots for her.)..Like this : Ahhh yes ..isn’t so much nicer to be with a man now then a foolish boy then! 🙂
That would be assuming this is a happy ever after story, where true love conquers all. Well, not so. Not so. 😦
I have to wonder whether Joanie ever pays you the $250… I feel like I was there with you when she mentioned “G definitely had the hots for me”. Ugh!!! I don’t know how you held back, but I have a lot of respect for you NOT punching her in the face 🙂 You are a diamond in the rough on this RV (well, besides Spock. He seems like a nice gent).. I can’t wait to read more.
Thanks, Hannah. Glad you’re liking the story! 🙂
sucked into it all once again!! At least Spock is nice. Almost as if you two are in similar situations with selfish partners taking advantage of your kindness. I’ll have to wait and see how my idea of him plays out. Can hardly wait to see what happens next.
I was thinking the same thing about Spock..
—–Monica,
I am hooked.
I adore your writing style.
I was all excited …. I thought your were going to get a smacker right on the lips!
Love this…
Thanks! I’m so glad you’re enjoying it. Having your support is just what I need to have the courage to keep going. As you can imagine, it can be painful at times reliving some of these memories.
Where are your real girlfriends?!?!?!?!?!?
How interesting would it be for me to tell about just the nice folks? I knew some people from work who were nice, but we didn’t really socialize outside work. Not yet, anyway.
Am I supposed to dislike everybody in your life at this point? Because I so do….
No, lol. It’s just that the interesting stories are not always about the nicest people…